PERLMAN, GAVIN L.

[GAVIN LUCAS PERLMAN]

[atrb=border,0,true][atrb=style, background-image: url(http://i54.tinypic.com/2nqfdd2.jpg); border: solid 5px #d6d6d6; width: 250px; -webkit-border-radius: 50px 4px 50px 4px; -moz-border-radius: 50px 4px 50px 4px; line-height:85%; margin-top: 5px] GAVIN LUCAS PERLMAN, "thanks for nothing, kiss my ass" TWENTY-THREE | HOT SEEKERS | GUITAR | JORDAN ECKES THE HERITAGE, "my name's gavin perlman, i'm twenty three and i'm not from texas like the other guys. yeah, give me vegas baby. uh, all you need to know about me is that i'm tall, my hair is wild and makes me look like a palm tree, and i play guitar for hot seekers. suck my dick." THINGS HE LOVES, "being tall, playing, making music, anything to do with music in general, my guitars, singing better than a lot of people he knows, playing shows, seeing the world, his hair, being right, drinking and being drunk, drunk tweets, sarcasm, forwardness, girls obviously - especially if they're real pretty, parties parties parties, hats and beanies, making kind of stupid decisions, excessive caps use, my macbook, being in the band, friends, energy drinks, making out, having a tight group of friends, little kids, freedom, travelling, coffee, the long drives on tour, watching movies, shameless flirting, taking naps/sleeping the fuck in, stickam shenanigans, wasting time, stalling, goofing off, being supportive towards anyone that's close to him, the outdoors, acoustic songs and sets, candids that are funny, taking pictures, sleeping, my dog max, cereal at any time of the day, driving around aimlessly, going back home, going to other countries, touring, meeting new people, being sweet secretly, teasing his friends, spamming twitter with updates, making people laugh, yelling, running around, going to the park, being crazy." THINGS HE HATES, "humidity fucking with my hair, being tall even though i guess i like it sometimes (love-hate, you hear), being guilted, crazy bitches, crazy fangirls, total ignorance, people who can't back their statements up, bad moods, anyone else other than myself having sex in my room or anywhere in my personal space, long airplane flights, being hungover, losing, being really wrong, strong perfumes or cologne, mismatching, being miserable, the phrase and act of "being on a break", when some of my friends are closer to girls that i've dated, people who stare for an absurdly long amount of time, people who try to fuck with his sister or any of his friends just to get back at him, people who fuck with his friends in general, bright flashes, stupid lies, bullshit reasons for things, being yelled at, being treated like shit, being caught in traffic, epic failing, having deja vu, crappy rainy days, things that are really oily, being sick, extreme heat or extreme cold, monday mornings, when people shit talk me and when they see me they don't have the balls to actually say something even if i know already or whatever, girls who take advantage of me or my friends, being super guilted into doing things, crazy girls who like me for my position in his band, being the reason why shit goes wrong in my friends' lives, being disrespected, cold weather, total ignorance, traffic, sitting behind a desk, staying put, being stuck at home, superficial people, girls who think they're skinny but really aren't (yeah, it's shallow, but what are you gonna do about it)." THINGS HE DOES, "checking my phone for texts and shit because i always think it vibrates in my pocket, always touching my hair yeah whatever i'm gay about it go away, getting fidgety when i have to wait for something to happen, pacing when i'm bored or waiting for sound checks and other stuff back stage. oh and i guess i hold my pen kinda funny when i sign things for fans after shows cause my hands get stiff when i'm done playing, quit pointing that shit out." ONE THING HE'S AFRAID OF, "being totally fucking alone with nothing but my problems to deal with." THIS ONE TIME, "i ended up having sex with 2 girls in one night when i was drunk (yeah okay judge me, but it was a good time), & but it's a tie for the worst between finding out that my 'mom' was really my aunt and my 'aunt' was really my mom; or the time i really fell for this one girl and she totally fucked with my head and led me on for about 4 months before i stopped being so pussywhipped by someone who wasn't even my girlfriend." PERSONALITY, "i hate talking about myself. seriously. this shit makes me sound more shallow than i already come off as. and i've got a tendency to take people around in circles during conversation, so here it goes. i can be pretty understanding guy if you look past the wild side that i've got. to be honest, it's kind of a front that i'm just so used to having, since it's how i was in high school. but i'm working on it. growing up was hard for me, my parents divorced and i was different from other kids because of how tall and skinny i was, so yeah, you get that whole judgement picture. kids are fuckers, the hardest critics. but whatever, i grew up with thick skin and that's why i'm the way i am right now, i guess. i'm not fake, i won't change myself for anyone. i kind of have problems with making the right choices; my mom taught me how to act accordingly with people and how to treat those around me, but sometimes even if i know what the right thing to do is, i do the opposite. i know initially i come off as an asshole since i'm kind of cold and sarcastic a lot of the time, but i'm not all evil and mean. i can be nice and i am, especially on tour, but it's just that i'm cynical i guess. for most of my life i've honestly tried to see the good in people, and even if others may think i'm a jerk, i'm really not if you just give me a chance, too. it really really annoys me when people talk about and backstab each other, as well as when people judge a book by it's cover - why do you waste your time doing that, gossip whores aren't attractive, i'm just saying. and i don't know why people like to judge anyway, like for example, just freaking talk to me before you make an opinion out of me. i like genuine people who can tell it like it is just like i do, but really if you're any kind of friend or person i'll probably give it a shot with you. unless you're a whore or a skank or something. i hold the bro code pretty well, too. just saying. my friends are a huge part of my life, as they've been the close family that i never really had in my life. i'd never bail on one of my close friends, but it's fair game with those i don't know too well. i'm kind of flaky when you don't really know me, since i don't like to get attached too quickly, so don't take offense to that. but really, i'd say i'm a good friend. are you confused already? yeah, sorry about that. i've got it though - let's just say i like to enjoy life while staying real as much as possible. i'm not a stranger to partying, i drink a whole fucking lot and you'll always catch me on the side with a cigarette. vices suck but everyone needs to loosen up sometimes, and trust me, the more i can stay loosened up and less uptight the better it is for everyone else, too. i'm kind of a flirt and i do like having a girlfriend or someone there to sleep next to at night, but i don't necessarily need any of that to be happy. even though i know how to spit my game, i don't exactly 'like' very easily. i'm really picky over who i date and even have any sort of thing with; looks are great but if you open your mouth and you're a total moron you can forget about it. you have a brain to back that pretty up. needless to say, i'm usually always single because of this, i've been told that it makes me an asshole. whatever. i don't think i'm an annoying person, but if you think i am, i think you should tell me and we'll work it out. sure, i know kind of get overbearing and easily irritated with other people when i start thinking something is right or should happen and then i act upon it, but that's just how i am. sorry if that's annoying or whatever. i do hate knowing people are annoyed or mad at me or anything like that, and the last thing i want is drama, so if we nip it in the bud before it gets worse, that's even better for the rest of us, agreed? i am loyal to those who have been there for me and have proven that they're real and good friends. i'll always be there to pour you a drink and listen to your problems. it's ironic that i'm kind of good at giving my friends advice but i can't really take it myself. i guess that's what i am, pretty damn stubborn. on the flip side, i guess all the insecurities i've had really led me to build myself up really high with this persona, but it's rare that i crack in front of other peoples or let them totally in to knowing exactly where i came from or why i am the way i am. i know, it annoys everyone (and a lot of my girl friends - friends that are girls, mind you) that i can't seem to express myself or show that much raw emotion, but it's just hard for me, okay? i'm a jaded little bitch. you've always come across that one guy who's had their heart broken by one girl and can't get over it, and welp, that guy is me. but i'm trying to fix myself slowly, i just need a little time and potentially a little help from others along the way. i may not be the number one choice for anything that another person needs and i accept that, but everyone should know that if you need help or want a friend, i'm your man, and i don't mind. it makes me feel less shitty about how i am if i can help other people. so don't be afraid of me, i don't bite all the time." HISTORY, "when you think of birth and when you bring a person into the world, you'd think that the circumstances would be happy. but really, the world isn't perfect, and i'm part of that part of the population that didn't really have the most happy-go-lucky perfect start. if you asked me now, i'd say that i was born too early, really. my mom, audrey, was only seventeen when she had me, a single mom because my father bailed on her once she had told him she was pregnant. i mean, i guess - what can you expect from high school pregnancies and shit? the story going on, my grandfather wasn't exactly happy about that - and being a single father, you'd think he'd understand how she felt at least from one perspective, but nope. so, mom was a scared girl and she wasn't used to being shunned, having had been a daddy's girl her whole life, the last memory that my grandpa had of my grandma. but at least throughout her pregnancy she had one person by her the whole time, her sister lisa who was already 24 and married. months went by and finally i came into the world a few days after her 17th birthday, and you know, i actually didn't know that she was my real mom until i was a teenager. why? my mom left and started a seperate life for the time being after that - i think if she didn't, she would've been too emotionally wrecked than she already had been at the time. and so aunt lisa and her husband eric were the ones who raised me as their own, told me that i was their kid. i suppose when you look at the situation it was probably a good thing that they thought that was the best thing for me, for my mom who felt like she couldn't give me as much as they could. but on the other hand, you can say i lived a lie for a little while, and it was a little shaky and hard to get everything back together again after that. was i, or am i, bitter? no, not really at all. i got over it after a while, after that time that they sat me down in the living room and told me the truth like a week before i turned fifteen. really, i wasn't mad, i was just shocked - if you were a fifteen year old you would be too. i mean, lisa and eric will always be my parents even though my mom is there and now back with an established life which doesn't require her to rely on others. she's my mom but not my mother, you know what i mean? but i am proud of her, it's like a life lesson i learned so early, and i do keep that in mind. that aside, i never had any problems at home, really. i feel like my brain was a little bit mature but not quite. i wasn't ever a rebellious child or teenager - i always did what i was told to, always tried to be as happy and ignorant as a child could be, for as long as i could be. i know, you'd think i would be at least angry with the world after all the secrets came out, or that i'd be all weird with my relatives, but that just never happened. i'm glad it didn't, too - and besides, even if i couldn't really talk to any of the adults at least i had someone to lean on, my brother-cousin, justin. he's a year older than me, and we were always close. so yeah, growing up, it happened. i went through everything else that everyone else was going through at the same time - puberty, first girlfriends and kisses and stuff, slacking in school but picking up again, friends and non-friends and all of that high school lifestyle. i was that guy whose name and face that everyone knew no matter if you really did like me or not, and at the same time i never really did anything to anyone - so i was just kind of there, really. i guess i never really fit in with just one group of people. fun times though, i had fun in high school in comparison to everyone who hated it. sure, i wasn't exactly that overachieving student, but i did pretty well and i pulled my shit together enough to graduate with honors on my diploma. aside from being a student, i was always hanging out with my friends, trying to make the most of life in fucking vegas with all these lights and opportunity - well at least, as glamorous it could be for a dude, this place is legit like a man's playground and once i turned legal it was pretty awesome. i kind of got notorious for a while, following suit with some of the guys i was friends with in high school - we were cool, we weren't really that much of jerks i promise - i mean, we didn't mean to be if we were. personally i just did some minor shit, you know, pranks and jokes that were alright. but this one time i got in trouble when i was going through my phase after i found out about my mom and stuff and i almost got arrested. i don't know what the hell it was, but i guess i just needed something to keep me sane. it was being in bands that kept me sane and on track, something to do with my time and as a release of all the teenage angst that followed in my remaining high school years. when junior year came around i started to teach music lessons at a local music store as a part time thing and that's where i got all my skills more perfected i guess. being in a new environment made me realize i have a good life, and people to support me. that's all i could've needed in high school. senior year pretty much came and went, and while living in vegas was some weird luxury i still kinda wanted to get the hell out of here - it's funny, it really is about where you live, and you always want to be anywhere but there while other people would give the world to be in your place, you know? so yeah, my future was obviously a topic throughout that whole time. i did want to stay, because i honestly do love the place i grew up in, but at the same time, my inner freedom was calling out to me, and i needed a new start. so applied to college and got accepted to a few places, and i ended up choosing a school in/moving out to texas to be with a couple of other relatives to get my act straight before anything else happened to me. i needed to get over my family drama first. i'm now on first name basis with all my guardians - it's only fair - and my real mom and i are mending that relationship still, since you know, i kind of lived a chunk of my life without her being that figure to me. i went to college for like a year and joined hot seekers after meeting the guys around the scene. i started realizing that college was awesome and all but it was just weird, it didn't feel right. and then like, fate threw some curve ball at us and suddenly we got a record deal and all that shit - you know, tour offerings and stuff - and since i turned nineteen the band has become full priority to me. so i dropped out but i do have intentions of going back someday and getting my diploma. i've basically been in the same cycle on autopilot for the last year and a half - tour, meet people, go home, see family, tour, meet girls, date them, break up, whatever, repeat - that's basically it, i'm just living it up while playing my music. i dated a girl seriously for a while but the music got in the way and a "break" turned into forever, and i'm still not over that like the pussy i really am. and i guess aside from that, everything was okay until recently. to put the next long story into it's short version, i've kinda been thrown off because my father contacted me. yeah, my fucking dad who left my mom eighteen years ago. he lives around in tampa apparently and wants me to stop by when i tour in florida, but honestly, i don't know how to deal with it. i guess one more life surprise and lie wouldn't hurt on top of the other ones i've been able to get through. needless to say i've got yet to meet him, and i guess when the time comes we'll see how this shit goes. i just hope there isn't anything else i should know that i don't already. again, not bitter, this kind of shit builds character, and i'd like that for myself, for others to see what i can handle and go through and still manage to be pretty content with life - thats the greatest lesson ever, you know. everyone's got their obstacles, but everyone's also got their family and friends and stuff - i'm ready for this summer and whatever it may bring, with old friends and new, and of course my family even though i know that the adults are getting real stern about my obliging for this. whatever, i'm not even thinking about it too much... yet. there's tons of tour prep and shit to be done that comes first. so, that's pretty much it, pretty much me from back then to the present. honestly i'm nothing special yet, but i'm getting there - i've got a good feeling for the future, because i know i've got that confidence that i need to make a name for myself in the real world and the industries i'm stepping into." hey there, the name's steph. i live in the eastern time zone and this is my LOL TENTH KILL ME character.