LUX, FRANCESCA E.

[FRANCESCA ELOISE LUX]

[atrb=border,0,true][atrb=style, background-image: url(http://i54.tinypic.com/2nqfdd2.jpg); border: solid 5px #d6d6d6; width: 250px; -webkit-border-radius: 50px 4px 50px 4px; -moz-border-radius: 50px 4px 50px 4px; line-height:85%; margin-top: 5px] FRANCESCA ELOISE LUX, "oh, when the day is blue, i'll sit here wondering about you. " NINETEEN | HOT SEEKERS | FRIEND | LILY MELROSE "SO TELL ME, WHO ARE YOU AGAIN?" "nameste, bonjour, hi. sorry if i don't speak up much. i don't really talk a lot. i ramble more than talk. and when i'm talking to strangers, i'm a bit more on the quiet side than usual; an observer, if you will. i'm more of the 'hey i'm here to listen to you for as long as you need me to' sort of girl. in general though, i like to keep to myself, really. easier that way you know. dealing with people, talking can get messy. i'm no one famous or anything anyways. but since you guys seem to actually want to know, my name's frankie, lola, lux, whatever you want to call me. i'm in no way picky. as long as it's not francesca. my parents wish. my mother especially, always refusing to call me anything but francesca eloise lux. a mouthful, huh? i think so too. i'm nineteen, but i feel like i'm years beyond that sometimes. others i feel five again. music offers me sanity. whatever little i have left of it anyways. which is why i'm here in the first place. a friend to one of the bands on tour, hot seekers. i support them wholeheartedly and want to be by them every step of the way. " "RIGHT RIGHT, SORRY. SO TELL ME A LITTLE ABOUT YOURSELF." "i'm a bit timid. and easily intimidated. people make me nervous. my nails are practically nonexistent what with me biting them every time i feel anxious which is more than likely all the time. you'd think growing up with three older brothers that i'd be a little bit more vocal, but i'm the complete opposite. i don't like to talk if i don't have to. i'm also, not the most trusting. i'm a bit paranoid really. i try to be nice to people. i don't really enjoy being mean in the first place. i just like to feel at peace. don't get me wrong. i know i'm making myself seem a bit psychotic with the paranoia and timidness, but ever since i can remember, i've always been a handful for my parents. always having panic and anxiety attacks. anything could set them off. i hate the feeling of them. the way fear clenches at my heart to the point of blackout pain. i feel like i'm suffocating when they happen. anyways, i've been told, mostly by my brothers, i'm too naive for my own good, and i let people walk all over me. they say i'm sweet, but i need to toughen up. grow some balls they tell me again and again. but i'm me, and i have no control over how i tend to overthink things. i try to stay positive, but hey, it's only natural to worry. they also say i've got my head in the clouds. always having to snap me out of my daydreams. guess i'm like my mom in that sense. i like to dream, but sometimes my dreams get a bit out of hand and involve in paranoia. i have issues with reality and non-reality. anyway, i try to keep carefree. try, being the operative word. " "INTERESTING! WHERE WAS IT THAT YOU SAID YOU COME FROM?" "i was born and raised in austin, texas. born to your typical family of five. i was the youngest. the baby girl to audrey and clark lux. my mother was a bit on the hippie side. she was a bit of a dreamer. she was from france, hence why she insisted on naming me francesca. like my grandmother, she told me. i'm nothing like my grandmother though. she was strong and confident. i, on the other hand, am just a mess of nerves and weak. anyways, my mother was living in austin when she met my father. the rest is history from there. we used to live in a big house by the lake. i was really close to my brothers. i admired them, wanted to be like them. adventurous and outdoors and running amuck. and then the incident happened, and we moved into the city almost immediately. everyone wanted to just leave that all in the past. it was an accident, but i, i don't like to talk about it. it makes me just, no. me, drowning, water, lost a friend, and that's all you need to know. that's when my panic attacks started amplifying. once i moved and after the accident. but yeah, moving on. i'm not as close to my brothers anymore, but i try to keep in touch. my family, we may have our moments of insanity, but i love them dearly. " "WOW. SO WHAT IS A DAY IN THE LIFE OF YOU LIKE?" "in a typical day? i'm actually quite boring. boring all day every day. i don't know why on earth you'd want to know about me. but, a typical day for me starts early. i'm a bit of a morning person. i like to get up before everyone else and have some time to myself. meditating, writing, painting, anything to get myself out of my own head. i try my best to keep myself calm. i spend a lot of my time with my head in books, riding my bike wherever i possibly can, and planning my escape. i can get kind of restless being somewhere for too long. anywho, i really am just your typical person. spend time with friends whenever possible, watch movies, cuddle, you know, the same hoopla, well, in-between having anxiety attacks or nervous breakdowns. it's not unusual to have at least one a day. it's something i've had for so long that i feel practically immune to it. yeah, normal, see? " "NICE. LAST QUESTION... WHY ARE YOU WHERE YOU ARE RIGHT NOW AND WHAT DOES THE FUTURE LOOK LIKE FOR YOU?" "that's a pretty scary question, don't you think? it makes my head hurt just processing it. everyone's always asking this. why is there this obsession with wanting to know what i'll do, what i'll be? It's hard to think about. When I do dare be brave enough to consider it for just a moment. i can see myself traveling, that's for sure. somewhere far away to places that are both exotic and not exotic. Anywhere really. I'll buy some disposable camera and take pictures of all the lovely people and the crippling buildings and the wonderful food. i'll get a boat and sail out to see, buy a compass and go every direction, get a telescope and gaze at the stars. As long as i'm anywhere but here, I'll be content. I don't like to contemplate the future, but when I do, it's at least there to think about." "ANYTHING ELSE YOU'D LIKE TO ADD?" "join me on a bike ride sometime, yeah?" hey there, the name's ellie belly. i live in the pacific time zone and this is my second character.