PARKER, FERRIS M.

[ferris]

[atrb=border,0,true][atrb=style, background-image: url(http://i54.tinypic.com/2nqfdd2.jpg); border: solid 5px #d6d6d6; width: 250px; -webkit-border-radius: 50px 4px 50px 4px; -moz-border-radius: 50px 4px 50px 4px; line-height:85%; margin-top: 5px] FERRIS MATTHEW PARKER, "I WANNA FLY, AND NEVER COME DOWN" NINETEEN | RELAPSE RECORDS | LLC VOCALIST | MAT MUSTO "SO TELL ME, WHO ARE YOU AGAIN?" "Well, my full name is Ferris Matthew Parker Junior. Ferris was my father's name, and because he passed away before I was born, my mother decided to name me after him. I'm nineteen, so... one of the younger kids on tour, but it's alright because I'll be twenty Novemeber sixth. I'm not in any hurry to get older, anyways. I sing for Love Lost City. It's easy to say that that band is my life. I've been singing ever since I can remember, and even when I was little all I wanted to do was be a musician; I'm just so happy it ended up happening. I wouldn't trade it for the world, even though I'm not getting rich and things get tough sometimes." "RIGHT RIGHT, SORRY. SO TELL ME A LITTLE ABOUT YOURSELF." "Me? I hate talking about myself. I'll admit that I've got enough energy that I wouldn't mind sharing it with somebody else. It tends to make me anxious sometimes, and yeah, I'm that guy who worries over every little thing. I keep quiet about it, though, cause I know it gets annoying. That's something I've gotten good at, though; hiding what I'm feeling. Sometimes I feel like I should be a girl, mostly because of how fucking emotional I get over stupid, stupid stuff. Not to mention that I'm easily embarrassed, and am almost contantly red-faced with a blush because of it. I'm not that lame, though, I promise. At least I try not to be. Go back a few years and I would have told you I'd never drink or do drugs or just party in general, but now that's a lie. Not that I do it that often. Actually, it's only every now and then, I guess because I was that dorky, shy kid throughout school, I got out and just kind of just wanted to try everything. But completely aside from alcohol and drugs, there's something about just being plain reckless that I like, stupid as that sounds. It's the reason I'm broken my arm and fractured my wrist, and got into the car wreck that left me with a scar along my side. It's little dumb shit moves that get me there, so I've been trying to take it easy for a bit." He laughs, pushing his fingers through his hair and smiling. "As far as the romance department, there's nobody filling it. I don't really like to sleep around, but every now and then there is a fling, won't lie. Uh, I'm also gay. I don't flaunt it but it isn't like I really hide it, either. If someone asks me I answer honestly; I got over the fact itself years ago when I came out of the closet. Like I said before, the band is everything to me. I don't want to put that in jeopardy. I'm submissive, anything but a fighter, so you can take from me what you want, but never the band. I'll fight for it until the day it just becomes enough and it's time we all move on." "INTERESTING! WHERE WAS IT THAT YOU SAID YOU COME FROM?" "Born and raised in Phoenix, Arizona. I'm an only child and my mother's name is Elena. I don't have a step dad, though I think there's possibility of one here soon. I can't ever really remember my mother dating, not until my sophomore year of high school. I think she was so, so in love with my dad that it seriously took her that long to deal with him passing on. it's like she was waiting for him or something. Which, believe me, it's not like I didn't wait around, too. Especially when i was younger, going over to friend's houses and realizing I was one of the few without a dad. Once I started asking questions and Mom explained everything, though, I didn't let that emptiness just sit there and fester. I feel like that's what she did for so long. Used me to fill it the very best she could, but when I got older and started growing out of the momma's boy phase, it started to hurt again. She started dating, though, so whatever. And I won't be bitter about that, ever. I want her to be happy. She was the best mother a kid could ever ask for, and I know even though I lost my dad to cancer before I got the chance to meet him, I'm so fucking lucky to have Elena as my mother. Um, high school was a bit rough. Junior high was the worst, though, because that's when kids actually shoved you into lockers and shit. In high school, to be honest, it was more verbal... but I had my group of friends and that's all that really mattered. One of the biggest stepping stones in my life? Coming out of the closet. I did that the summer after sophomore year, and believe me, I got shit for it. But what gay kid doesn't? I was sick of hiding from everyone. I wanted to be comfortable in my own skin. Junior year, it got bad, but I'm not going to give you that sob story. I ended up being able to stay out of school after junior year for the band. I finished high school online, which was tough but a lot easier than I think it would have been had I stayed and attended physically. And, well... now I'm here." "WOW. SO WHAT IS A DAY IN THE LIFE OF YOU LIKE?" "The average day, for me, is really typical to be honest. I usually wake up around eleven or noon, no alarm, unless someone else wakes me up before then. I have hot tea, usually Chai or green, and smoke one or two cigarettes with it, sitting outside by the bus. Then I change clothes and hang out with the guys or something until our set time. We play whenever the hell that is, then afterwards we usually hang out with some fans. Every now and then there's a party that we'll go to with some of the other bands. Then it's just back to the bus, smoke cigarettes, play videogames, sleep, wake up the next afternoon and do it all over again." "NICE. LAST QUESTION... WHY ARE YOU WHERE YOU ARE RIGHT NOW AND WHAT DOES THE FUTURE LOOK LIKE FOR YOU?" "Music is what pulled me through everything. Every darker patch of my life, it's the music that got me past that and motivated me to move on; music was the light. I remember being younger and going to my first show and thinking shit, I want to do that when I'm older. I wanted to be part of the music that helps people, maybe even save lives like music did for me. I do play guitar and a little bit of drums on the side, but for me there's just something about singing. It calms me down when I'm worked up, and it feels so right, so that's the part I ended up with. I honestly believe that if it's meant to be, it will be, and Love Lost City is doing well; so this feels right. I don't doubt that this is what all of us are supposed to be doing, at least for now." "ANYTHING ELSE YOU'D LIKE TO ADD?" "Shout out to my awesome Mom, no shame. Mom, if you're reading this, I love you. Sorry for the cursing." hey there, the name's cassie. i live in the central time zone and this is my first character.